Here's to a new beginning! Words I would love to admit I felt comfortable saying, but I don't... at least yet. I'm Jenn, and I'm at a strange place in my life: random job, boring life, friendless etc... Why am I writing? Because, at this point, I'm really not sure where else to turn. A little about me: I have a loving boyfriend, nice apartment (lacking furniture, but nice), I HAVE a job (not my ideal), and my favorite season is just beginning(Fall). I'm 24, and I've never felt so old, lifeless, and lost. It may seem with the above, life should be just fine. Well that's just it... it is just
fine. I see the world pass me by, and I can't seem to find the faith and motivation to join in. I've been stuck in this rut, not sure what to do and each day seems just barely bearable. They all ask and I pretend to enjoy life with a smile on my face, but behind closed doors I've never felt so alone. I'm the heaviest I've EVER been in my life, I'm not sure why I am not blissfully happy in my relationship, I feel like I'm going through a painful breakup between a friend and I, and I watch as friend's and family land their dream jobs, or at least have a path toward one. I think the word of the year = confused. Confused at why I'm not where I want to be, confused in what it is exactly I want, and confused why I feel like each week nothing changes....
I'm sorry if this is not an inspirational blog, or that I don't have words of wisdom for you, but at this point in my life I'm the one who may need some. Optimism is not a word in my vocabulary right now. I'm still believing that I'll be able to say one day that my time has come... until then I'm holding on the reins for this rough and patchy ride....
